An emotional message from the skipper, whilst enjoying a coffee aboard his boat at anchor.

In Summer of 2023 I had the plan to sail from The Netherlands, to Belgium and then to England to visit London. But 2023 brought a Summer full of hard wind and bad weather, so I had to cancel that plan.
In beginning of 2025, I introduced the plan to sail motorvessel Lady Liselot to The Med, The Mediterranean. Since this trawler yacht has an airdraft of 5.3m with the mast down, I can only reach The Med, by sea or by the river Danube. I decided to pick the most challenging route: Via The North Sea, The Channel, which later becomes The Atlantic Ocean.
But, that brave decission caused a lot of stress in my head, causing weeks of procrastination.
Weeks became months.
BUT, on one point in August 2025, I decided: "F*CK IT, JUST DO IT".
All this also caused that I decided not to produce any longform videos. The footage is there, but whilst travelling, I want to be in the journey and not being a content producer.

Part of my procrastination is the 'fear' of not knowing what will happen when I arrive somewhere. I claim I am searching for new destinations, but that sentence is way, way out of my comfort zone. Because of my ASS, new destinations always create underlying stress. The problem is that I often have 10 scenarios planned out in my head, which then turn out to be completely inaccurate in practice.

So there was this moment, where I was at anchor, enjoying the Burntwick Isle area in England, when I decided to share some personal information. And although the contact with this child is good after 25 years I still feel the hurt of being seperated for so long. I am not that much of a family man, with everybody around the Christmas-table in fancy sweaters etc, but I know my values towards my kids.
There was a moment I thought to delete this take and start a new one. I did not as you can see.


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An emotional message from the skipper, whilst enjoying a coffee aboard his boat at anchor.